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  “Hey, Julian”

  Leon covered his head “What do you want?”

  “Natalie’s is worried about you. What is going on? What is wrong?” he said

  Leon put the pillow down and looked at him. “Let’s see what is wrong with me?” he said getting out of bed, “My mom is dead because my sister lost a baby that she got from our father, because he raped his own daughter. To add a slap in the face he tried to make out with my pregnant wife after he has seen her naked for three days.” he said yelling, “Let’s not forget that bastard lied to me then left without saying I am sorry for everything.”

  “Would you wanted his apology?” asked Quincy speaking calmly

  “Hell no! I want to beat him into the damn ground. My mom and sister should be here sharing my happiness not that bastard.” he said feeling the energy leaving him, “I can not look at my wife the same. When we have our child and if it is a girl would I be the same.”

  Quincy sat next to him, “I can not answer those questions for you. All I know is that woman in there is hurting. She is missing her heart. I know Aunt Lauren and Claire are with you and they probably are mad at you for letting that asshole come between you and her.” said Quincy standing up, “What you and Natalie have is special? Maybe this is Claire way of watching over you.”

  Leon covered his face and felt confused. Quincy hugged him and left the room. Olivia and Quincy kissed Natalie and left. Leon showered and looked at himself in the mirror. He walked to the living room; Natalie was staring at the cabin. She wanted to have that feeling back again.

  “Natalie, can you give me a shave?”

  Natalie turned around. He saw tears streaming down her face. He walked to her and touched her face. She looked up at him.

  “I need you.” he said

  He kissed her lips. He slowly tasted her tears on her lips. He did not realize that his own desires were neglected. He held her against the wall and kissed her hungrily. She replied back with her own hunger. She wanted to feel his skin against hers. She wanted him to be in her. He tore her shirt and her bra. She took off her pants never leaving his mouth. They were naked and their bodies seemed to sigh in relief. He picked her up and sat on the sofa. Natalie felt him and she moaned as they rocked. Their bodies were on fire and they could not quench it. They seemed to have gone on for hours and finally, somehow they made it to the bedroom. He had her over the bed and she felt all of him in her. She screamed, “Julian” The explosion sent waves through their bodies. Natalie fell on the bed as he fell next to her. She smiled as the room stops spinning. Leon looked at the ceiling.

  “I am scared, Natalie.” he said not looking at her, “Will I do the same to my child?”

  She looked at him, “Leon, you are not that man.”

  “How do you know” he said looking at her

  “I know you. You are a loving man. You would give your life before you let anything like that happen to your child.”

  “I do not know.” he said sitting up

  “Maybe you need to talk to a professional?”

  He did not say anything. He just laid on her stomach listen to the baby’s heartbeat.

  Leon took Natalie’s advice and saw a professional. He was slowly coming around. Natalie would take anything at this point. She was showing and that perked Leon up for a little bit. He saw the baby feet move against Natalie’s stomach. He was in awe over it. He helped Natalie with changing the spare room into a nursery. They went shopping for baby furniture and baby items, nothing expensive but nice for the baby. Leon was admiring the breast pump. She looked at him. He stood behind her and whispered in her ear.

  “It could be fun to practice.” he said

  She hit his arm and walked away. Leon walked the aisle and the women stopped and stared at him. Natalie realized she like them looking at her husband. He was lifting car seats in the air showing off his muscles. The women did a double take. Natalie went over to him standing among the women.

  “Excuse me sir, I wonder if you could flex again. You see my husband’s body is something like yours. My cousin says it isn’t. Can you flex just a little?”

  He smiled showing his white teeth, he flexed. She blushed as an elderly lady cursed and almost ran into a display.

  He said in a deep voice, “Will that be all, Mrs.?” he said, “Or maybe we can test out the bed in back.”

  Natalie blushed, “Sorry sir, I am pregnant.”

  “Women who are pregnant are the most beautiful and sexy women in the world.” he said as two women passed them smiling

  “Sorry sir but this is only for one man.”

  “He is truly lucky.” he said moving close to her, “If I was your man I would have you in ecstasy very moment.” he whispered in Island tongue in her ear and she began to shake

  The other women looked at her and smiled. Natalie looked at him.

  “I got time, your place or mine?”

  Leon stood closer, “I am hot.”

  She looked at him, “I am wet.”

  “You pay and I will get the car.” he said walking from the store

  Natalie checked out and he put the stuff in the car then they drove home. They did not make it to the bed. Leon lay on the floor in the living room. She looked at him and smiled. He kissed her hand as he helped her up.

  “We can not do that for a while.”

  “Says who?” he said kissing her neck

  “I will be too big soon.” she said as she pulled his hair

  “Keep doing that and I will be bald. What will you pull then?” he said looking at her

  “I will find something else to pull.” she said laughing against his neck

  “My naughty wife” smiled Leon as he picked her up and carried her to the room

  They made love slowly this time enjoying every stroke and moan that came from their mouths.

  Leon and Natalie sat in the doctor’s examine room watching their baby move. Leon smiled as they showed the face and the little hands.

  “Do you want to know the sex?” asked the tech

  Natalie looked at Leon and smiled. “Yes” she said

  The tech moved it around and showed them the sex of the baby. “Congratulations mom and dad you have a girl.”

  Leon kissed Natalie as he held the picture of his daughter. He pulled his dreads back as his smile brightens the whole room. Natalie felt her husband return in that instant. He did not stop smiling. He asked for another set of pictures. He smiled as they left the doctor’s office. He continued to smile as he dropped Natalie off at the salon. He got to his office and found a frame that held his diploma. He took it out and put his daughter pictures in it. He put the picture on his desk next to Natalie’s picture. He took the picture to show off his daughter to everyone. The work went by quickly as he had more energy than usual. He drove home and Natalie was finishing dinner. She walked to the table and sat down. She looked at the mail and began to rub her legs. Leon sat beside her. He put her leg on his lap. He rubbed her legs. Natalie smiled at him. She looked at a certified letter that was addressed to Leon. She handed it to him.

  “Open it. My hands are busy.” he said smiling picking up her other leg

  Natalie opened it. She began reading and began to gasp. Leon looked at her and watched her face turned sad.

  “What?” he asked

  Natalie put her leg down and gave him the paper. He began reading it and froze. He got his phone out and called Aunt Rose.

  “Is it true?” he asked

  “Yes.”

  “What happened?” he said looking out at the tree

  “He apparently was drinking and fell asleep with a cigar in his hand.” she said solemnly, “After you left he had been drinking a lot. He could not face the fact that you knew what happened.” she said as she heard him sniffing, “Julian, I am preparing for the cremation for next week. You do not have to come.”

  “I will be there.” he said as he hung up the phone

  Natalie touched his arm as he looked at her. He kissed h
er hand and went to his room. He began to pack his overnight bag. He closed it up and sat on the bed. He looked at the dresser. Natalie placed the picture of his daughter on the mirror. He went to it. He touched the picture and smiled. He sat on the bed looking at it. Natalie came in and stood before him. He touched her stomach and felt the baby kick. He smiled. Natalie touched his face.

  “What happen?”

  He looked into her eyes trying to be strong. He did not want to let this spoil his good spirits.

  “They are having a memorial next week. Can you check in on the store for me? It can run itself but I need you to keep the guys in check.” he smiled at her

  “I can do that.” she said holding his head in her hands, “Are you sure you do not want me to go with you?”

  He felt the tears began to come into his eyes, “No but I have to do this.” he said smiling at her, “I just want to be done with this and make peace.”

  She kissed him as he held her tight. He tried to speak but he knew it would lead to tears. He felt the baby kick. The tears came down as he rocked back and forth. Natalie held him tight and began caressing his head. She placed her hand under his chin and made him look at her. She kissed him. She touched his face and wiped the tears as she kissed him slowly and lovingly. He pulled her onto the bed and made love to her.

  Leon stood by the bed as he prepared to leave his sleeping wife. He touched her face and kissed her forehead. She moved but stayed sleep. He left the house and went to St. Thomas.

  As his plane flew over the island, Leon wonders if he would ever call this home again. The plane landed. Aunt Rose met him in the lobby. She held him as he kissed her cheek. They walked to the car and headed to her house. Leon was quiet as the car pulled into the drive. He walked into her house. The family hugged him as he stood in the living room. Leon began to feel caged in by his family. He put his bag down and walked out the door. He came to the shell of a house that used to be his home. He walked through it touching the water down walls. Everything was destroyed.

  He looked in his room. He tried to find something of his but there were nothing. He walked into his sister’s room. He went to the desk and looked through her things. He opened up her drawer. It was amazing that it was still standing. He pulled out her favorite necklace. He held it in his hand and remembered that she made it with mom at the beach. She loved that necklace. He examined the necklace. There were words on the shell. He looked at it and it said Love Mom. He put it on his neck as he continued to search the place. He pulled out a picture that was taped to the bottom of the desk. He looked at it and it was a picture taken from the side of Julian, Claire and his mom watching the sunset. His mom hair blew around them as she hugged her kids. He put the picture in his pocket and did not find anything else.

  He walked into his father’s room and searched it. He found a chest under his bed. He opened it and it had birth and death certificates. He found an envelope. He opened it up and saw pictures of Claire getting dress. He became angry. He found one of Natalie as well. Leon tore them up. He went out back and found a drum. He put wood in it and started a fire. He threw the pictures in it. He went back in the house and found more shocking pictures. He found a picture of his cousin, Yvette. He burned everything. He searched his father’s whole room and became disgusted with his dad. He found another lock box. He pried it opened. It was things that belong to his mom. He looked through and decided to keep it. He walked into the living room and found the photo album untouched. He looked at the album. He took out the pictures of his father and burned them. He turned to leave when a figure came up beside him. The man was walking with a walker and he was looking at him like he knew him.

  “Hi, Julian.” he said

  Leon looked at him, “Do I know you?”

  “I am Tim Baxter. I knew your sister Claire.” he said extending his hand

  Leon looked at him and shook his hand. “Why are you here?”

  “I had to pay my respects to Claire. I let her down when she needed me.” he said as he sat on the walker that became a seat

  “You knew about my sister?”

  “She was the only one that did not see me as a drug addict. We became friends. She had to talk to someone.” he said sadly, “I was not here when she left this house.”

  “What do you mean?” asked Leon as he looked at him

  “The day that she ran away, she came to my house. My mother told her I was in the states getting treatment for my MS. She gave my mother a note. When I got home, she was gone.” he said looking at the fire, “I was devastated.”

  “What did the note say?”

  “It said that life is hard and she wanted to be free of the pain.” he said wiping his eyes, “I thought I saw her by my window one night. Then two weeks before she died she came to my window. She was not herself, so much make up and bruises on her. When I saw her, I began to cry. She climbed in the window and sat on the floor. I sat near her and she leaned her head on my shoulders and just slept. I held her all night. When I got up the next morning she was gone. I should have made her stay.” he said crying as he got up, “I got to go.” he said walking away then he turned around, “Rest in peace Claire.” he said as he walked away

  Leon walked to his favorite place and sat watching the water fall. He screamed at the top of his voice. The falls drowned out the cries. He began to yell.

  “I hate you dad! You bastard!” he said as he fell to his knees crying

  “Why?” he said feeling lonely, “Claire, I am sorry I could not protect you like I should. Mom I am sorry you had to go through this alone.” he looked at the falls, “Mom and Claire you would have loved Natalie. She is the best thing that ever happened to me. I feel alive with her. Now we are having a daughter and I am scared. I promise you both that my children will never have to live being afraid of their father. I will protect them and Natalie with my life. I miss you both.” he said holding their picture

  A breeze blew from the falls that seemed to surround him completely. He felt a calm float over him and he whispered, “I love you” he said as the breeze seemed to kissed his face and disappeared. He sat there and wanted to feel it again but it was gone. He watched the moon dance on the falls.

  He did not get back to the house until late. He kissed his aunt and picked up his bag.

  “Auntie, promise me that you will put this in the coffin with him. It should be buried with him.” he said handing the diary to her

  Aunt Rose kissed him, “I will.” she said looking at him, “You are not staying.” she asked holding his hands

  “No, I have made my peace. I have a wife and daughter who need me. I have nothing here anymore.”

  “I am here and I love you.” she said as she kissed his cheek

  “I love you too, but I will not be back.” he said as he kissed her, “I will send you pictures of the baby and hope you will visit one day.”

  “I will. Have a safe trip back home?”

  He emptied the safe box and album into his suitcase. His cousin took him back to the airport. He waited for the next plane. As he left St. Thomas he took a long look at the island that he loved and said goodbye to it forever.

  Leon landed back at TIA. He got in his car and drove home. It was midnight when he got home. He put his stuff at the front door and took off his shirt and his pants and got into bed. Natalie felt his arms around her.

  “Malcolm, I told you not tonight.”

  “Who the hell is Malcolm?” he asked in her ear

  She looked at him, “He is a guy I picked up this morning.”

  “You mean to tell me you could not handle it for one day.” he said looking at her as he touched her face

  “He was no good anyway. He could not make me scream like you can.” she said pulling his dreads

  “I would gladly make you scream.” he smiled as they kissed

  Natalie felt him inside her. She moaned as he found renewed strength. He made sure he was careful. They made love like it was the first time. Natalie tried to hold on but
he was hitting the spot with force. Natalie screamed his name and he smiled. He had not reached his point yet, but Natalie helped him to achieve it. He said Natalie name in his island tongue and she felt it in her body as it vibrated as he was by her ear. He told her what he wanted to do with her body in his island tongue in his deepest voice. Natalie was overwhelmed. She pulled his hair and screamed his name again as her body shook. Leon’s own body joined her body as they exploded with force. Natalie began to feel light headed. She closed her eyes and waited for it to pass. She opened her eyes and saw him looking at her.

  “Did I hurt you?” he asked

  “No, I am fine. How are you?”

  “I am better.”

  “Are you sure?” she said touching his beard

  “I am sure. I have made peace. I went through the house and my room was gone. I went into Claire’s room and I found her necklace and a picture of the three of us together. I went into my father’s room and was disgusted by what I saw. I burned what I could. I found my mom’s things in a chest and I took them. I visit my spot and talked to my mom and Claire. When I finished talking with them, it was time for me to come home.”

  She kissed him, “I am glad you are home. You will have to find new employees.” she said leaning towards him

  “What did you do?” he asked pulling her closer

  “They were having a party. I had to regulate.” she smiled

  “Do you realize you have to help me until I find new employees?” he said kissing her lips, “There is a shipment tomorrow and we will be working late.”

  “What if I bribe the boss to give me the night off?” she said against his lips, “By giving him fifteen minutes of hot sex.” she smiled

  “How about twenty minutes and I will forget about you firing my employees?”

  “Let’s make it seventeen and a half and I will scream your whole name.” she said

  “You are on.” he said as he kissed her

  She made good on her promise and Leon was turned on more. He lay next to her and held her tight.